Trust me, Beloved

Trust me. That's what the Lord has been constantly whispering to my heart. I sure wish I were a better listener. I sometimes feel like those Israelites who had eyes but did not see and ears but did not hear. I know he's trustworthy. So why is it so hard?!

Yesterday we celebrated my birthday, and Mama and I realized that it was my first birthday at home in five years. The last time, I was turning 17. That seems like a lifetime ago. I have done so much growing since then....experienced so many more aspects of life......and yet I still have not learned to obey the Lord's command.....trust me.

So much is happening, yet time seems to move so slow. Then I turn around and realize that in five months, I will be a wife living a country away from all that is close and familiar. I can't wait, and yet I can't push it away fast enough. I'm scared, Lord. I know you say I'm to trust you. Heal me of my unbelief.

Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion,
Which cannot be moved, but abides forever.
~ Psalm 125:1

I waited patiently for the Lord;
and He inclined to me and heard my cry.
He also brought me up out of a horrible pit,
Out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock,
And established my steps.
He has put a new song in my mouth--
PRAISE TO OUR GOD!
Many will see it and fear and will trust in the Lord.
~ Psalm 40:1-3

When my heart is overwhelmed,
Lead me to the Rock that is higher than I.
~ Psalm 61:2b

Trust in Him at all times, you people;
Pour out your heart before Him,
for God is our refuge.
~ Psalm 62:8

Trust me, Beloved.