So I'm starting to feel as if life is moving on and I'm being left behind. My brother is graduating high school and leaving for college in the fall. About a bajillion of my friends are engaged, including one of my closest sisters who will be married and moved to California by July. Another of my sisters is graduating college and off to grad school in PA. Many of my role models in the generation or two above me from church are pregnant and building families. My parents are discussing moving to the country once brother is out of the house.
And where am I? Stuck in a dorm room doing homework and documenting quiet hours. Work, class, work, class, work, work, class, class. I am increasingly unmotivated in my major because I've discovered it's not what I want to do with the rest of my life. My plan for my Senior Internship fell through today, and I have no idea where to go from here. I don't know if these issues are simply spring fever or if God's got a serious life change just around the corner...I feel restless.
Daddy, show me your purpose for me here. Reveal your plan that has me stuck in the middle of nowhere NY. Give me confidence in my passion, not a feeling that has me worried daily I won't be cut out for what I feel you calling me to do. Give me courage to face these changes that are happening in the lives of those I love. Establish me in your strength and hope!
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